Life is good...

Hey folks, hope you're all well. It's been a very hectic couple of weeks but for once I feel very good about life and am feeling very happy and settled in most things. My golf is good. I played very well tonight and my putting was horrific! Despite that, I had the ball on a string and loved every second of it. My ball striking is coming along so well now that I am getting a massive buzz about what could happen next year.

I just love golf. I have done for 16 years now and will do for the rest of my life. I am driven very hard internally and am very clear on what I want to accomplish. The down days are horrible but they never put me off. All they do is spur me on to work harder - although this can work negatively at times as I can sometimes become obsessive. I'm working so hard on enjoying the game and not letting things get me down. I think that when you are given things to deal with in life it completely changes your outlook in all aspects of it. On the days I keep my temper in check, I love to play and I feel much better about myself.

I am going to try and save as much money as I can over the winter for tournaments next year and I am actually going to take charge of myself and start taking myself seriously! I heard a great clip from the golf psychologist recently which simply says that if you don't feel confident, ''ACT AS IF'' you are. I have continually put myself down in front of others about my golf. I guess on some level it takes the pressure off me to play well. But what a negative thing to do, and I don't know anyone else who does this. Well, maybe one person who I should think knows who they are if they read this. So, I am endeavouring to live this way now. I am a professional golfer. I know myself that I deserve and have earned this status so why not start believing it?!

I have joined a gym again and am undertaking what I consider to be a major lifestyle overhaul. I've given up chocolate, I don't have sugar in my tea now, I am cutting the beer down although I like to leave this as a treat as I can do it in moderation anyway and I am exercising hard!! I want to lose over a stone in weight. I want to become stronger and I want to become fitter as this will make me more confident. The fact I'm a bit overweight has made me very self-conscious and to be honest I probably havent taken the care of myself that I should have done. So, this all changes now!!! I'd love to work on my golf technically over the winter but I still don't have anywhere in Tunbridge Wells to do this so I'm not really sure how to tackle that one.

I aim to finish the year on a high. After an extremely low beginning to the year personally, if I can finish the year with my PGA qualification and as a qualified dispenser, I would consider that a successful year. It would be streets ahead of last year. In all honesty if I could erase 2008 completely, I would! But, things are looking up now. I've got some exciting things coming up. Next week i'm going to see my favourite band Coldplay in London and the following week I am seeing the Stereophonics. In addition, I am seeing Ricky Gervais in December so there is a lot to look forward to.

My dispensary job is going to be exciting too over the next couple of months. We are moving in to a brand new surgery so this will be cool!!

Anyways, I've waffled on enough for this blog..........